I've only once felt like this - when we were putting in all-nighters to prepare for the Asia Regional Conference.
I know this is good for me - I just don't much like feeling like I'm drowning. ::snort:: Bottom line, leadership is meant to be a team sport and I'm trying to function as a team, without the full team. WILD is training in PWOC. Last year there was a lot of joking that myself and another board member were wearing many hats....regional board, international trainer and local President. Due to some redistricting and unexpected PCS moves....I now find myself wearing 7 regional hats, International Trainer, General Session Speaker, WILD planner.....and today I experienced lots of adrenaline rushes and what I think must be "near panic" attacks.....because repeatedly I found myself taking deep breaths...... Thank God for Cathy - my lone, brave, courageous regional board member!
God is showing me anew, perfection is not my goal. Love God ~ Love Others is my heart, my focus, my process...and if I get that right; we'll be fine......details will be missed, details will fall into place...I do NOT want to be so stressed by details that I don't take time to love on my ladies.
Today I spent the full day working on WILD and local things I need to do before I leave home on Wednesday.....
I did have a break for farewell tea and scones with Anita and Connie....and then helped with the PYOC dinner with two more friends who are leaving - Jenn and Tara (multi-tasking at its best).
....And about those "attacks" - it's fine......I know where to go for peace.....He's shown me where the hiding place is....and I'm climbing into it regularly. Tomorrow is our last PWOC day of the year....an amazing year and while I've been stretched...I wouldn't trade it.
Living all of life before the face of God...