Some days I LOVE the view from my kitchen window! Is that a moose I see? Why, yes! I do believe it is. The moose have stayed up on the mountain as we've had a comparatively warm winter. It is just getting cold enough that they are showing up in our yard....
Sunday, January 31, 2021
Saturday, January 30, 2021
Krista has 2 free gym passes a month. She needed to use them before February arrives. We love it when she invites CoRielle to go to the gym, and we all are able to join them. Josiah and Carrie called to see what we were planning for the day. They joined us with Livie, too! The boys were working. Michael stayed home with Dad. He doesn't really like swimming in public pools and someone needs to be with Dad.
We made lots of fun memories, I didn't get photos as my phone isn't waterproof. Here are mental snapshots I took:
- Livie going down her first water slide with Josiah. She's becoming quite the fish.
- Benny going down the waterslide with Auntie CoCo - before his parents alerted us that he doesn't like his face in the water.
- Josiah and Cory talking in the big pool - while juggling Benny and Livie.
- Visiting with Carrie and Arielle in the Kiddy Pool.
- Benny gleefully shooting me with the water gun.
- ALL of us sitting in the hot tub.
- Benny walking out to the lobby in Cory's shorts - someone took his clothes.
- Benny loves me to the moon, back to the earth, up the stars, and then the ANGELS! That's a whole lotta love.
|Me with Danny, Arielle in the foreground|
Photo via Carrie's phone
Friday, January 29, 2021
Another perfect Friday....it began with the moon as Stacia and I left the driveway....the time is coming when we won't see the moon for months. LOL
Our day continued as we discussed the gospel of John over fantastic omelets at Sunrise Grill.
Whilst we ate we couldn't HELP but HEAR the conversation of two gentlemen several tables away. The main speaker has written a book, or two, he wanted to share, he loudly condemned compromising churches (including several local churches by name), it became apparent which church he attends (and he doesn't think they've got it "right" either), he wasn't a fan of President Biden and didn't seem a fan of President Trump either, he used a racial slur that nearly sent Stacia from her seat to his face, but he left...before we said anything but certainly not before the whole place was given a false view of the Jesus we serve. It saddened us and led to introspection. Jesus help us be aware of the impression we give others of you. May we not misrepresent you. And as we've contemplated Pilate I've wondered if I would have the courage to stand up to an angry mob...I certainly need to work on my responses to situations like this...not sure what it all means at this point...but I do think it grieved the Holy Spirit for this to be the representation of Jesus that morning.
The waiter DID come over and say we were welcome to stay all day and study if we'd like...so maybe they saw the contrast in how we approach our faith?
Arielle and the boys surprised us with a visit. I don't take the joy of having children close enough to stop by for granted! Millie actually was calm enough to stay in the same room with Benny.
Thursday, January 28, 2021
I scored a sale on blueberries. I expected them this fall, but they didn't arrive up here this year. I had just had to buy my first blueberries in a year.
I was happy to buy these and freeze them. Gotta LOVE our outside winter freezer. When it's 1* outside it doesn't take long to flash freeze things. 12 quarts of berries are in the freezer ready for yummy treats.
When Acorn sent a man out to install the chair lift - they didn't listen to what we said. They put it in...but they didn't let us remove the railing going downstairs and so the chair is out much further than we were told it would be...and THEN...the man just stapled the extension cords on our walls. I should have taken photos and sent them to Acorn. We had a box screwed into this wall and 2 extension cords stapled on the wall. Downstairs we have the same.
Michael removed the baseboard, hid the cord, made a groove for the cord....and look....no more cord stapled to the wall. LOL I told him he should moonlight fixing chair lift installations.
Wednesday, January 27, 2021
Dad and I picked Alex up at work on our way to his primary care appointment. This was a huge help as I didn't have to lift the chair in or out of the back of the van. My shoulder has been tweaked. Alex stayed in the car and took a warm nap while we went inside. I really like this NP. He is caring and thorough and his philosophy of care seems to line up with ours. We left the appointment with encouragement, a referral to a specialist, and a plan for dealing with sleepless nights. I opted to keep doing what we are doing for as long as we can...and that includes a healthy dose of prayer for peaceful nights for dad. To use drugs they often use in situations like the one we are experiencing would require a big shake up in meds and we'd all rather avoid anything "new."
Dad's blood sugars are STILL doing well...and we opted to lower his metformin by 1/3 this time rather than lowering his insulin a bit more. Nathan told me if I EVER have craziness, as we did this month, with a med to call him personally - and I will.
Dad said he was mad at all "4 of them" who took his license, but he sees it wasn't Nathan's fault and he's a "good boy from Wyoming." Shew....
Tuesday, January 26, 2021
Millie....is a puppy. I knew we'd have to face this, but didn't think it would be NOW. She's 9 months old. I guess it happens. I also did not know a dog can be in heat for weeks rather than days. We weren't prepared and will need to go buy some doggie diapers.
|Check out her face. I understand.|
Monday, January 25, 2021
Grab a drink and sit a spell. This one is going to get long-winded. Here are some thoughts which have been swirling around my mind.
I can't change cold, ice, snow, or dark winter days. I CAN control my attitude and actions in the midst of a rather isolated/locked down season. I've been consciously turning my mind to focus on what I CAN do, rather than what I can't do - be that due to winter, covid, or caregiving.
"What CAN I do?" has become a running thread in my mind. "What CAN I control in this situation and what is simply out of my control?"
I CAN walk inside, if I can't walk outside (honestly, it is 5* outside and I don't WANT to walk outside). I CAN move, even if I can't make it to the gym. I CAN meet with friends via zoom and polo when we can't meet in person. Many of our covid related restrictions are easing in Alaska. BEFORE last March it was my practice to meet face to face with women. Most often we would do this in coffee shops. For me to leave my home now requires someone else to stay engaged with Dad. This isn't a matter of being in the same home, but being present in the room with him. He is NOT obnoxious, he IS much stronger - but he often forgets he falls at step 4, he needs his walker, his balance is simply off. To leave home requires me to be intentional and it can't happen 2 - 3x a week in this season of family. I'm also exhausted as Dad is up several times a night, disoriented and looking for people and things which existed decades ago...but not in our home. It's easier for all of us if I make home the center of my circle. OK y'all God is the center. We know that. ::wink::
At the start of this month we added a local Zoom Bible study to the schedule. That is working well. Next month we plan to have an in person study one week and Zoom the other 2 or 3 weeks....working to find a workable balance for all...the group, me, my family...we'll get there.
I continue to internally "fuss" about not being able to connect with women face to face... The nook...the sanctuary seemed to be part of the answer, but I wasn't sure how. I've written about the concept before - here. In short, I believe God impressed on me to "create a sanctuary" in the nook of our home. I did that. BUT over time...it was easier to run out to a coffee shop, Dad moved in with furniture some of which landed in the nook, we store things in the nook, the recycling is sorted in the nook...it was NOT a place to sit, relax, invite others to linger...it was a cluttered storage room with a recliner in it and a computer desk...it screamed storage and solitary pursuits. One day I commented to Michael I needed to clear out the nook and make it another area for Dad to enjoy. Michael's response surprised me, "No. That's your nook. It's important you carve out that space."
His response stayed with me. His words prompted me to remember the intent to "create a sanctuary" in this space. I am aware this is much bigger than a physical location, but God directed us to set aside a physical location, as well as creating a place for sanctuary in all of life.
Sanctuary, according to Merriam-Webster, is a holy or sacred place set apart for worship, a place that provides safety or protection, it is protection from danger or a difficult situation that is provided by a safe place.
Sanctuary - it's what my heart longs for, it's what I long to provide for others. One of the characteristics of our ministry the past 30 years is walking WITH others, and that can be messy - for them, for us. We need sanctuary as we provide sanctuary.
In Bible study last week one of the gals mentioned being aware of the need to "make a place" for the presence of God in her daily life....and all the jumbled strains swirling around the nook settled into place in my heart, mind and spirit. I needed to clean out the nook. Not because I'm selfish and want "my space" but because God impressed on me 3 years ago I was to create a sanctuary in this space.
In the past three years I have used this space to meet with Jesus. We have counseled in this space. I haven't invited women to linger in the space with me. Why? It was convenient to meet in town. I'd allowed the space to become cluttered and it was no longer relaxing or welcoming (BTW that can happen internally as well as externally). I always feel like it is inconvenient for people to drive "out here," going to others is much more my "natural bent." We had fallen short of the original vision of creating a sanctuary in this place - though I think we've done well at making our home, our land, a sanctuary. (The moose seem to love it. ::snort::)
There are lots of hours in the day when all the kids are working or out and about and the only ones home are Michael, Dad, and myself. I can't run out to coffee shops as often as I previously did...but I CAN invite people to meet here. Dad often naps after lunch. Even if he IS up, if I create a welcoming sanctuary in the nook...I can sit here with cups of tea and connect with women. We can do some of our counseling here, instead of having to wait until other family is home for Michael and I to both leave. God KNEW I needed to create a sanctuary. He knew it would be essential for my personal mental health, for our ministry, for continuing to connect with women in this season when I can't run out as easily as I used to.
And so, after we rearranged our bedroom, I went to work in the nook. I'm about 95% done. I still want to move the carpet in here to our room, and bring up the carpet which is stored to the nook. I also need to consider taking down Christmas decorations and delivering the rest of our little Christmas gifts and that will clear the last two storage tubs from the nook. I am taking recycling to the garage daily, rather than letting it pile up in the nook. I added twinkling lights - the other strand was 70% blown out.
Standing in the kitchen by the tea things looking into the space
I moved cookbooks to the bottom of Mom G's hutch. There is currently nothing in the drawers. Excess tea and "tea things" are in the middle section and our selection of sugar-free syrups perch on top. Moving those items to the hutch, made this tea nook much less cluttered. I DO miss the butler's pantry our home in CA had. LOL Have I mentioned we have a barista living with us? Stacia can make fun drinks as needed: London Fog, Mocha Breve, steamers, chai.
I guessed two could sit comfortably in the spot. One in the recliner and one in the rocker. The desk chair can be turned and another chair brought in for four to sit and visit comfortably. I think.
What remained was to try it out. Would it work to have company and NOT be in the living room with Dad? Would he feel left out? Would anyone WANT to drive out here for tea? Would it be comfortable? Would I be able to relax with the project "mostly done?" It felt threatening to invite others home, rather than to a coffee shop, and that has led me to more musing.
I extended an invitation to my home for a cup of tea. I invited Rose because she's mentioned repeatedly to me we haven't been able to sit and visit since last March. She misses Life Group. I knew she'd been the caregiver for her parents for years and would have words of wisdom to share. Rose is also one of the most gracious people I know. I figured if it was too odd sitting in the nook....or if Dad needed help in the middle of our "tea" - she'd be fine. She agreed to come. I made scones, sat out some nuts and prepared to offer a variety of coffee and tea. It was HARD for me NOT to put out a real "tea time spread," but I reminded myself to do what I COULD do with a thankful heart and it would be accepted in that spirit. Most often we didn't EAT at the coffee shops anyway -just a drink and conversation.
Y'all it was perfect! Dad laid down for a nap about 20 minutes before she arrived. The kids were working, or out and about. We sat and visited...and it was much more intimate than a coffee shop. The conversation was sweet and I am thrilled God provided a way for this aspect of "me" to continue into this season.
JaRissa sent lovely birthday flowers which arrived as we visit...what a special bonus to the day.
If you're local, and you wouldn't mind driving "all the way out here" for tea, I'm back in business and ready to visit. If there are only two of us we CAN be 6 feet apart and masks are fine if you want to wear them...though I've not learned how to drink tea well with them. I'm game to practice. I DO wipe all surfaces down quite regularly at home as we don't want to get ANY kind of winter virus with Dad in the house. This is the 2nd winter we've had him here....without ER visits or pneumonia...we aim to keep it that way.
Create a sanctuary...yes and amen.
Sunday, January 24, 2021
Yes, Sunday was my birthday.
HOWEVER, the best celebration, by far, on Sunday revolves around an event which took place at a church in the next town over. An event which was celebrated by friends and family around the nation and I believe was also celebrated by angels in heaven.
Carrie and Olivia made a public declaration of their decision to follow Jesus - sold out. These photos bring tears to my eyes even now, 2 days later. These two are precious to us.
|Our "bonus" daughter and granddaughter!|
Saturday, January 23, 2021
My birthday is tomorrow, January 24th, but our household is busy and it seemed best to celebrate today.
We went to Red Robin for dinner....and it was yummy. Then, home for "cake" and gifts. That maple bar was yummy. My stomach is upset...maybe too much fat and carbs?
|Sugar Free Goodies|
P.S. I've been told I can't post photos of Michael's main gift online.
Made 100 by my birthday...Walking Tally 103 miles out of 100 miles
Friday, January 22, 2021
Stacia discovered Turkey Red makes a great cup of Hot Chocolate. I loved their breakfast - lots of vegetables. Stacia and I had a great discussion on chapters 12 - 16 of John.
She and I headed to the gym after our breakfast study. We only made it once this week due to doctor appointments - but we.made.it.once.
Dad had a Physical Therapy appointment at 4 p.m. and we watched Jumanji The Next Level after dinner.
Every mile counts! Walking Tally 100.75 miles out of 100 miles
I have moved every 2 - 4 years ALL OF MY LIFE. We have been in this house for 3 1/2 years. NO, I am not feeling like I want to move...but I am feeling like it's time to rearrange a few things. LOL
We were not overly impressed with this property when we first saw it. I loved the floors, the fridge, the cabinets...we liked the location, the yard, the woods, the windows...we did NOT like the emaciated horses, the shape of the living room, nor the MASTER BEDROOM. The home we placed an offer on fell through. We asked these owners to build a deck of the 2nd floor door that led nowhere - they did. We have learned this is an ideal location - beautiful, very little wind - but that small room remains. Like the living room, it's long and narrow. We suspect it was built to fit specific furniture, and that the plan changed as our heating vent is IN THE CLOSET. Anyway - our room has been a frustration. We planned to knock out the wall between ours and the room off the living room - it would still be odd shaped but it would be bigger...Dad lives in that room now...LOL It is what it is. I didn't take a photo until we had made a giant mess....but here is our room. Standing in the door and looking in.
To get to the bathroom - one has to walk to the end of the bed, around the bed, between the closet, bed, dodge a nightstand and success. This is not a problem...but I DO have a lot of bruises from trying to navigate it in the dark now that I'm up several times a night with Dad. We've talked over and over about how we might be able to better arrange furniture...and it never clicked. I began to play with painters tape and the tape measure......and we began to move things around.
These photos are taken standing in the same spot as the above photo. Both our dressers are against the wall you don't see - to the left of the fan. We never watch TV so it doesn't matter that we can't see the TV. LOL
I did move a little bookshelf in to cover some big scratches right where the call button receiver is on the wall.
We are still talking about moving the carpet from the nook to the room....and we still need to rearrange pictures to fit the new scheme...
Someday we'll do a major remodel of this room - but for now - this will work. No new bruises from middle of the night trips in the dark.
Did I say a tight fit? The first morning I opened the door, the knob hit the corner of my dresser and I was locked out of the room. ::snort::