Monday, June 11, 2012

Words That Chase Anxiety

It has made all the difference....as I've healed from childhood abuse, dealt with a very short temper, overcome fearful anxiety.....and after my near collapse yesterday....the sweet presence of Holy Spirit, calling to mind those words of Jesus, has once again made all the difference. 


Words that make a difference...words that chase out anxiety....


"I can't do all things. I can do this one thing well: Love God ~ Love Others; and for most this will be enough. When it isn't in the eyes of some, I rest, knowing that I play for an audience of One - in my prayer closet or speaking before a conference - the ONE.Love of Him and His bride is that for which I'm accountable." 


That's all - and this one thing I CAN do....better all the time.

And when anxiety surfaces....as when I'm trying to remember far too many details, or when dear ones are moving in droves, or when a son has graduated and his dream is thousands of miles and several continents away, or when I must travel for an extended period of time and trust my children once again to Abba Father.....Phil 4.6-7.....I won't wallow in the anxiety, I will pour it out to Abba and His unbelievable peace will guard my heart and mind IN Christ Jesus.

Though, of course, always, I crave the prayers of those who love Abba....because really....I am at times a crazy woman...or at the very least life has become crazy for this season. ::snort::


Choosing Joy!
©2012 D.R.G.
~Coram Deo~
Living all of life before the face of God...

Crazy Woman

I've only once felt like this - when we were putting in all-nighters to prepare for the Asia Regional Conference. 


I know this is good for me - I just don't much like feeling like I'm drowning. ::snort:: Bottom line, leadership is meant to be a team sport and I'm trying to function as a team, without the full team. WILD is training in PWOC. Last year there was a lot of joking that myself and another board member were wearing many hats....regional board, international trainer and local President. Due to some redistricting and unexpected PCS moves....I now find myself wearing 7 regional hats, International Trainer, General Session Speaker, WILD planner.....and today I experienced lots of adrenaline rushes and what I think must be "near panic" attacks.....because repeatedly I found myself taking deep breaths...... Thank God for Cathy - my lone, brave, courageous regional board member!

God is showing me anew, perfection is not my goal. Love God ~ Love Others is my heart, my focus, my process...and if I get that right; we'll be fine......details will be missed, details will fall into place...I do NOT want to be so stressed by details  that I don't take time to love on my ladies.

Today I spent the full day working on WILD and local things I need to do before I leave home on Wednesday.....

I did have a break for farewell tea and scones with Anita and Connie....and then helped with the  PYOC dinner with two more friends who are leaving - Jenn and Tara (multi-tasking at its best).

....And about those "attacks" - it's fine......I know where to go for peace.....He's shown me where the hiding place is....and I'm climbing into it regularly.  Tomorrow is our last PWOC day of the year....an amazing year and while I've been stretched...I wouldn't trade it.

Choosing Joy!
©2012 D.R.G.
~Coram Deo~
Living all of life before the face of God...