From Bre's My Space...Bre has written letters on each of the younger ones birth days for their "baby book" - which I never compile. ::snort::
To an unborn child...a tribute to my miscarried brothers & sisters
May 24, 2007
Dear Little One:
In a way it is ironic that I call you "little one" as if I am wiser than you. Already I am sure you have more wisdom than I will ever acquire in this life as you are in the presence of God. "The fear of the Lord is the beginning of all wisdom, and knowledge of the Holy One is understanding." (Prov 9:10) "By wisdom the Lord laid the earth's foundations, by understanding He set the heaven's in place; by His knowledge the deeps were divided, and the clouds let drop their dew." (Prov 3:19-20) However, to me you will always be the baby I never got to hold, the soul I never got to know, the life that seemingly never blossomed.
I take comfort in the fact that you will never know the pain of stubbing your toe, breaking your arm, or spraining your ankle. You will never fear frost bite or catching a fever. You will never know sorrow, betrayal, or a broken heart. However, it seems to me that you will miss out on so much of life. You never even drew in a breath of air.
It seems senseless. Why are other people who will not care for their children, who will abuse and scar their children, given children? While my parents (who have proven themselves good stewards of the children they have received) and my family (who already love you) lose a child. Why? Why does God give life only to take it away before you even had a chance to see the morning? But who am I to make this judgment call…I who does not see things as the Sustainer of the Universe sees? God's timing is perfect. He knew the perfect amount of days for you. "The days of the blameless are known to the Lord," (Prov 37:18a) God knew these days and I believe these are the days you were meant to have. I do believe that life begins at conception, that you have a soul that now resides in heaven. I also believe that every life has a purpose and that God's purpose for that life will prevail. "Many are the plans in a man's heart, but it is the Lord's purpose that prevails." (Prov 19:21) You may have never received a name to be known by, but your legacy lives on in the testimony of those who were touched by you life and death. It lives on in the hearts of those of us who were brought to a new place of trusting God because of your existence. You are a gift that we never got to hold in our arms, but that we will always hold in our hearts. I love you.
~Bre
To those of you who have not yet received word: my family is mourning the loss of the child that was to be born this December. Watching my parents is baffling. They have such faith, such trust in God, such submission despite the way their hearts are breaking and Mom's body is feeling. Surely this is the result of the maturity that comes from walking with the Lord for many years. They continue to choose joy and thank the Lord for the blessings He has sent. Please pray for them and for all of our siblings as we walk through this.
Life is precious and none of us know how many days we are really given.
What am I doing with these days I have?
