VULNERABILITY ALERT
Truthfully, I think that having the girls coming home is sort of what put me in a funk yesterday. If you've not gone through this, you may think I'm psychotic.
I'm THRILLED they are coming home. It makes me smile and tear up to think that they will be here in 9 short days. However, I can't stop the thought "it's only for 9 days and then they'll be gone again for at least 9 months" from quickly following. I'm not alone....when told the girls are coming home, Zander's reply is "I don't want them to leave". So you see.....it's another bitter sweet joy. Incredibly sweet....but hard to separate from the fact that they have grown and are not HERE.
I'm certainly taking the thoughts captive. I'm choosing joy. I'm choosing to fully live each hour of the 9 days they are home...but my mother heart KNOWS a goodbye will quickly follow the time they are home....and those goodbyes are still very difficult for our family. Ah, but the hellos....BreAnne is the most excitable girly girl I've met. ::Snort:: She runs, squeals, hugs us tightly....we love the hellos...Krista is a bit more refined. LOL
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Sis: Fully know how you are feeling. Choosing joy is the way to go. BUT if the tears want to come....let them. Still at your age and at dad's/my age it is the same bitter/sweet thing. We long ago decided that, (against other missionaries in the PI's advice), we would just let the emotions flow and enjoy you kids every bit we had you near.
Still feel the same way when we don't get to be with those in Springfield as much as we want. :):):) Think it is a good thing to feel this kind of love.
Not preaching at you but be sure to know there have been and is now tears in our eyes/hearts in not being able to be with you all this year.
like you, choosing joy,
love/prayers
yeah, you can sure begin to understand how grams felt when God led her kids to Africa and the Philippines, can't you? I mean - glad they are following God but sad that it never works out to be together....that's why those years in Hardin are so blessed and precious to me.....I knew THEN it meant a lot to her to have family near and I know NOW a bit more how much it really meant....some day I pray God works it out so that we can all be together as much as we'd like to be...for now...I choose joy.
((((De'Etta))))
This must be so tough, especially with Mike away.
Praying that can enjoy the time they are here without feeling sad about them leaving.
Praying for you De'Etta. I can't imagine how you and the kids are feeling and how Mike is feeling across the world. My prayers will be with you all. Enjoy your time with the girls!
Sis,
I disire to offer words of encouragement...not sure what to say, so I'll share this poem written by Scott Palmer.
Before the poem though, I will say that Psalm 100 keeps coming to mind as I read your vulnerability alert.
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The journey of life takes us through many times of happiness and sadness.
We remember the happy times as the most enriching experiences of all.
Although the sad times do not outwardly appear to benefit us,
they are, in reality, what builds strength and character in all of us.
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These quick hello/goodbye's have to be so very hard. The girls must feel so loved and special though, to have a family that cares enough to be sad yet encourages them to follow their dreams anyway.
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