Tuesday, November 07, 2023

Prayer Requests & Thankful Thoughts

 Pray

1. It's been a hard night after yesterday's arraignment. Everything went fine. Seeing the defendant moving on while Josiah can't ...somehow reawakened, or freshened, grief.
2. Pray we find the rhythym of LIVING WITH GRIEF because it seems to be an unwelcome companion on our journey. We are taking steps towards routine...college classes, chores, cooking meals...
3. ALWAYS such a sense of loss and emptiness...something vital is missing.
Tonight, I'm thankful for:

1. Time with Benny & Danny while Charles and Arielle saw doctors.
2. My purse was returned to FM customer service after I left it in a shopping cart in the parking lot.
3. Cards and letters from high school roommates, fellow military chaplains and pastors, and from a gal who was in our Jr high youth group 29 years ago.
4. Fire in the Woodstove on a day when I can't stop shivering.

Monday, November 06, 2023

Two Weeks, Prayer Requests, & Thankful thoughts

Two weeks since Josiah was killed.

While the world moves on and we have to begin getting back to routines (college, work...) everything feels different and changed for us.
The ache is big.
I want it to be a nightmare.

Via Carrie's FB
Prayer Requests:
We are ever so thankful for the community of prayer warriors surrounding us.
1. Court today.
2. Clarity for decisions.
3. Josiah's girls...health, provision and safety.
Photo via Carrie


Thankful for
1. Brendan, Siakayle and Daisy for staying with Dad.
2. Family and friends gathering at the courthouse. Bail remains, defendent will stay in jail until trial. Discovery set for Dec 20th. Thanks for making the trip Kaleah.
3. Visit with Carrie and Liv. I can't tell you how much we love these girls. It's a comfort to be with them.
4. Michael's winter driving skills.
5. Quiche from Costco for dinner. I think all the Costco meals are from Aaron and Elise. So glad not to have to cook.

Sunday, November 05, 2023

Sunday Thoughts

 Our last guests have left. There is silence this early morning.

Silence can be healing.
Michael is at the Palmer PD for shift change.
I guess we do the next thing.
Today, church with Carrie and Liv.
Tomorrow, another arraignment hearing...this time in superior court.
Always a sense that something is missing or out of kilter.
I miss Josiah.
Breathe.
Marveling at all the tea everyone has brought. This is all new, plus 4 cartons of Oregon sugar-free chai concentrate. Feel free to come for tea.


















Thankful for
1. Friendly people in a new church setting.
2. Church and a couple of hours with Carrie, Liv and family.
3. Real snow

Saturday, November 04, 2023

Prayer Requests & Thankful Thoughts

 Please Pray for

1. Another day...breath by breath; moment by moment
2. Safe travels for family and friends starting their ways home.
3. My soul hurts.
Josiah and Benny 

Thankful For:
1. Friends.
Hardings, Our boys, Robert, Michael and Earl 

Friday, November 03, 2023

Thoughts, Prayer Requests & Thankful Thoughts

The defendant in Josiah's murder pled not guilty, was indicted by the grand jury and passed to the superior court. There will be an arraignment hearing Monday (6 Nov) at 1:45 pm at the Nesbit courthouse, Rm 601. We welcome any who would like to attend. Seating will be limited.

I'll have to do some research to see what all this means, forgive me if I get legal terms wrong.
#CourageousJoy #JusticeforJosiah
Photo: Remembering Central Region PWOC board 2007-2009. Sacred space where Josiah committed to love and cherish Carrie and Livie.

Prayer Requests:
1. I am not sure how to move on from here this morning. I started with a piece of toast, first breakfast since the 23rd.
2. Pray for justice.
3. Pray for grace and the salvation of all involved in this story. I must say I understand Jonah so much better, but YES, pray even for the salvation of the defendant.
Josiah gives Benny tips in salmon bonking

Thankful Thoughts
1. Friendships that have stood the test of time.
2. A "late" winter.
3. Izaak brought over a moose roast - it was yummy.

Wednesday, November 01, 2023

Josiah's Eulogy/Obituary

 *Jamin did an amazing job writing Josiah's Eulogy/Obituary. 

Josiah Goecker

Feb 9, 1989 - Oct 23, 2023

Josiah Michael Goecker of Eagle River, Alaska, gave his life to protect a colleague on Oct. 23, 2023. His selfless act of heroism surprised no one who knew him in his 34 years of life. He is survived by his pregnant wife, Carrie Goecker; daughter, Olivia; unborn daughter, Josi Faith; his mother and father; and nine siblings.

His family and friends adored him for his kindness, his wisdom and his ability to create community everywhere he lived. As a "military brat." he lived in many places, including Alaska while he was a teenager.

He applied his decisive leadership skills and business acumen to become a pivotal driver of several award-winning Chick-fil-As. Accolades rarely excited Josiah though; what he truly loved about his work was mentoring the teenagers who worked for him. The personal growth of his team members as people, in all areas of life, was something he treated as a serious responsibility. He never shied away from speaking truth with grace and bulldog-like persistence.

Despite his accomplishments, he dreamed of returning to the mountains and streams of Alaska. In 2017, he made the leap and returned to the Last Frontier. Josiah could barely contain his excitement on the Alaska Marine Highway, pointing out every bald eagle, the scenery that only changed inch by inch - but still needed attention - and the spectacular sunsets over the Inside Passage. He was like a child who had tasted cotton candy for the first time.

He quickly established himself as an avid fisherman, and these outings were a special time for him to catch up with his friends and family. He especially relished the family's annual dip netting trip on the Kenai River, taking most of the responsibility to coordinate the daunting logistical task of preparing and supervising 10-plus family members while dip netting.

He met his wife, Carrie, and they quickly bonded over their love of God, family and all the adventures that Alaska offers. Josiah proposed to Carrie at the Eagle River Nature Center's viewing deck in May 2021, and they married in August 2021. As a family man, Josiah was the ultimate girl dad. Friends and family recall him riding his bike with Olivia around the neighborhood and helping neighbors remove snow. He loved a good bonfire with s'mores and loved ones. He was absolutely overjoyed to discover they were expecting their second daughter in early 2024.

To his siblings, he was like a third parent; he was their loudest fan, the first they called when facing adversity and the life of family gatherings with his dry, self-deprecating humor. To his parents, he was a beloved son who honored them by seeking out work from his father's list of projects on their property, and enjoying a good conversation while working alongside his father.

He volunteered frequently at ACF Church in Eagle River by helping attendees find parking during the Alaska winter or extending a warm greeting at the door. He became teary-eyed during baptisms and was passionate about Hope to Alaska, an organization with the church that provides funding so individuals struggling with mental health and suicide can obtain help.

Josiah was loved by all who knew him for his steadiness, his kindness and his courage. All who mourn his passing take solace in knowing his legacy is one of love to family, friends and community. On Monday night, Oct. 23, 2023, Josiah undoubtedly gazed into the eyes of Jesus and heard the words, "Well done, good and faithful servant!"

A celebration of life will be held on Thursday, Nov. 2, 2023, at 5:30 p.m., at ACF Church, 16620 Brooks Loop, Eagle River, AK 99577.

Arrangements were made with Janssen's Eagle River Funeral Home.


Click Here for a Printable Version from the ADN. 

Prayer, Praise, Link to Josiah's Celebration of Life service

Prayer Requests:

1. Dad has a nasty cold. Which leads to hard logistics in the next couple of days...and its difficult to be a good caregiver when you want to crawl back into bed.
2. You can imagine how hard today and tomorrow will be for our family - pray for Jesus to carry us.

Here is the link to Josiah's Celebration of Life. All are invited to attend or view at 5:30 pm AK time (8:30 central).
In lieu of flowers please consider a donation to Hope to AK.
Tonight, I'm thankful for:
1. Friends who fly all the way up here and spend the day sitting with GG, folding laundry, sweeping the floors so we could go say our goodbyes to Josiah.
2. A caring funeral director.
3. Pizza dinner for a CROWD and a chance to hug John and Jacque.
4. Rose in Kansas sending a care package of tea....and local friend, Yadira showing up with groceries, snacks, milk, tea...things are already set out for people to snack tomorrow as they come in and out.
5. Michael's brother, Earl, and nephew, Jerome, arriving.
6. Jamin and Pastor Brian putting me down for 10 min in the Celebration of Life program - even though I said I needed 3-5min.
Note: photo below taken in front of our tent on an annual dipnetting trip. Josiah LOVED having the family all together and FISHING.