I've heard this a lot over the deployment and past few months. People see me as fairly strong...which is a HOOT! Those closest to me know that I'm a wimp. I've said before, and I must say again: if you see any strength in me, it's His amazing, awe-inspiring, strengthening, holding grace that you see, not me. He's amazing. I'm human.
I've been thinking about the above phrase lately. Sometimes we simply feel like we're at the end of our strength and we can't hang on one minute longer...to God, to hope, to faith, to joy....
I believe I've had a revelation. I don't have to hang on. God is sovereign. God is big. God is big enough to lovingly encase my humanness. God will HANG ON! I will rest. I'll rest in Him and trust that He is quite big enough to hold on to me...to keep me safe in His presence until I feel strong enough to hold on a bit longer. Or maybe....and I've not discussed this with the resident theologian or even really filtered it through my own theology filters....but just maybe I'm not meant to hold on - maybe I'm meant to rest and He will hold on. Hmmm....OK - not talking salvation here and all.....I'm aware of TULIP and plan on being a persevering saint. ::snort::
No worries - just a few thoughts that have been brought home in the midst of my living my life lately.
I've been thinking about the above phrase lately. Sometimes we simply feel like we're at the end of our strength and we can't hang on one minute longer...to God, to hope, to faith, to joy....
I believe I've had a revelation. I don't have to hang on. God is sovereign. God is big. God is big enough to lovingly encase my humanness. God will HANG ON! I will rest. I'll rest in Him and trust that He is quite big enough to hold on to me...to keep me safe in His presence until I feel strong enough to hold on a bit longer. Or maybe....and I've not discussed this with the resident theologian or even really filtered it through my own theology filters....but just maybe I'm not meant to hold on - maybe I'm meant to rest and He will hold on. Hmmm....OK - not talking salvation here and all.....I'm aware of TULIP and plan on being a persevering saint. ::snort::
No worries - just a few thoughts that have been brought home in the midst of my living my life lately.
5 comments:
This is a good thought. I mean one can't always hang on. Not even perservering saints carrying Tulips. VBG
That sounds good to me, De'Etta. The past week has been a roller coaster of emotions. I am at the end of my rope and really felt abandoned by God. I know HE doesn't abandon me, but it sure felt that way. He has been moving amazingly, and I am no longer at the end of my rope, but resigned to circumstances. I hope to be able to blog about them later. I've been quiet because I just coulnd't think/talk about it just yet.
This is an excellent thought, De'Etta. My thoughts are turning often to the gal in our small group who lost her husband. I know she is going to go through waves of depression and anger and sadness (all the stages of grief). Clinging to Jesus and letting Him be our strength is really all we can do.
Thanks for writing.
TULIP?
I was struck with a similar thought too a few months back. I was thinking that no matter what happens in this life, it's just a short amount of time compared to what we know awaits us. This is just such a small part. I know that whatever God asks of me can never be more than what His Son did for me--and yet I did nothing to deserve this grace.
"For I know the plans I have for you . . . "
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