I'm sure there is a fancier theological name...but my friend, Renee, shared with me a church tradition with which she is familiar. As you inhale you praise God or name an attribute; as you exhale you petition. The breathing sort of helps to calm a person too.
I found myself doing a lot of deep sighing today as I watched Michael go up and down and I kept saying to myself over and over, "I just want this over." I've made a conscious effort to capture rebellious thoughts....and I believe it is God that reminded me of Renee. I told God, that's it...I'm coming up with a prayer to mutter instead of THIS phrase.....and instantly....
"Emanuel, You are close," replaced "I Just want this over." Or "Emanuel, Draw me closer."
Who knew? Another tool to take every thought captive to the Lordship of Christ.
A huge encouragement today was an email sent by PWOC International Prayer Coordinator to the International Board and Regional Presidents. She asked all to intercede specifically for myself and Michael. What a joy to know the specific verses they are praying and that they are holding up my tired arms. Tonight I only drained 20 ml from Michael's gut drain - that is more than 50% less of what it's EVER been since surgery. I think he may get his drain out tomorrow. I'm believing the labs are going to be positive and we'll have some positive steps forward towards full recovery.
Living all of life before the face of God...