Friday, July 10, 2026

Friday Night at the Bear Paw Festival

Jared showed up this afternoon and whisked the girls away to the Eagle River Bear Paw Festival. Larissa and Noah met up with them. I was glad they got to go. Michael isn't up to walking and crowds.

Last year we walked in the Bear Paw parade with Jared's campaign. We were too tired to join the fun. They made up for that this year. Jared will be running in the 5K and manning a booth or something on the other two days so this is a great opportunity for simple family fun! 

Stacia, Melia, Allie, Jared and Noah 

Ah, the wonder! Seen through Noah's eyes. 

Not quite tall enough - but he was allowed on with Jared


Jared, Noah, Allie

Stacia, Melia

It's always a bit odd to be out and about with Jared when he is recognized. Fun - just surprising.  Melia's sister currently lives with our former medical provider. She met up with everyone to hang out a bit. 


Note - I didn't take any of these photos. Thanks to Larissa, Jared, Stacia and Melia for sharing photos. 

Thursday, July 02, 2026

Michael's Back Surgery

 I don't have a single photo for this post but as I attempt to recapture the time I realize I haven't mentioned Michael's back surgery.

Michael has arthritis in his spine. He developed two cysts in the same spaces as the arthritis. This has led to constant nerve pain of varying degrees for the past 6 months or so. He has had pain for YEARS and the VA sent him to a chiropractor - which he has done weekly for at least 4 years. They said they don't want to do back surgeries on men his age...wanted him to be at least 70. You can see where I'm going. The back pain has been constant for 4 years. He was getting aligned weekly. I slowly realized that where he used to have bad days after he was active now,  he wasn't moving around much at all. He basically has been in his recliner and was in pain if he did ANYTHING. 

He went back to the VA. There is a new primary doc. She sent him for an x-ray. They also sent him to PT.  Then he was referred for an MRI and to the civilian orthopedic in the valley. They quickly noted the problem. They said no amount of chiropractic alignments or PT would help. The cysts and arthritis had created a situation where his nerves were compressed...all the time. He was told not to twist, walk, lift and to wait for the VA to approve surgery.  

It took several weeks to get the initial VA approval, then he needed to be cleared by the cardiologist, then someone else...he attended two pre-op appointments and then the day before surgery we were notified the VA wouldn't let the surgeon give him a brace so we had to drive to Anchorage to get the brace from the company they would pay. 

Finally, on the 2nd of July, Michael had back surgery. It was to be two incisions. They would cut the top off a bone to allow more space for nerves, and they would remove both cysts. There was nothing they can do about the arthritis. 

I waited past the time they said he would be in surgery. 

The surgeon called to let me know that they were having trouble with Michael excessively bleeding. They had "thrown everything we have at it" and got it to stop. They had sewn him back up. They were 1/2 done. They were not comfortable making the 2nd incision to do the same thing in the other spot.   

We will have to see how much relief he gets from 1/2 the surgery and determine if he will do another surgery when he recovers from this. 

We came home with meds and ZOFRAN. We were sure we'd avoid the horrendous vomiting that usually accompanies Michael's surgery. We didn't.  He was pretty miserable with back pain, throwing up and dizziness...and we had a "control slide" which ended up with him face down on the floor. We were a mess. He didn't want me to call the kids (out at a movie night at BreZac's) or any of the guys to help me lift him. He was sure we could do it...and we did. 

He can't drive for 6 weeks, maybe 3. 

He is still in pain. . . new pain. 

I'm writing this on the 11th and he has new pain yesterday and today...his LEGS are bothering him. He says this is to be expected. I'm not sure. BUT he's doing better than he was on the 2nd. 

The kids have been great help. We have hunkered down and focused on Michael recovering. 

Saturday, June 27, 2026

Elevator Pitch - Allie's Thesis Film

 Hi, guys. It’s Allie.

I think this might be the first blog post that I’ve actually written, which is odd because I feel like I’ve spent a fair share of time on this blog. I know you guys can move mountains – I’ve seen it before, and I trust you can do it again. All that to say, I’ve got a request. But first – story time. As many of you know, I left Alaska in the fall of 2025 to go to Liberty University to pursue a bachelors degree in film.

I left during a tumultuous time. The family attended the sentencing for Cy’s murderer barely a month before I left for school. On one hand, it felt like closure. But on the other hand, it didn’t bring him back, and that wasn’t any kind of ending I was content with.

I left Alaska, moved to a new state without anyone waiting there for me, and began working on what would be the culmination of all my work as a film student – my thesis film. I wrote the first draft of Elevator Pitch on a random summer afternoon. At the time, I was a freshman in college, fresh out of a very unconventional and harried high school experience. I was taking a screenwriting class with Liberty University online, just for vibes. That week, we were talking about elevator pitches, which referred to being able to pitch your story in the time it took to ride an elevator.

I thought, “What if instead of having to pitch your story in the time it takes to ride an elevator, you have to pitch why you should be allowed to live in the time it takes to ride an elevator?” And Elevator Pitch was born. It began with a man riding in an elevator, another man jumping in and threatening him with a gun, asking, “Why should I let you leave this elevator alive?”

The initial script was just dialogue. Just two guys in an elevator talking about life and not wanting to be a part of it anymore. It was dark, comical, and had heart. My gunman, Boston, was a zany, hapless character. He was suicidal and looking for reasons to live, so he asked someone else for inspiration. Only Matthias was even more suicidal than he was.

As I continued my college experience, hopping from pursuits, passions, callings, and jobs, Elevator Pitch stayed with me. When it came time to write my thesis film, Elevator Pitch was one of the ideas I pitched – pardon the pun.

As life progressed and I changed, so did the characters. Boston went from being an entertaining, flat character to a fully fleshed-out person. A young man from an abusive background who was kicked out for something that wasn’t his fault. Sound familiar?

Matthias was harder to understand. He was so angry and so sad. What was the source of his suicidality? I decided that his sister, Lily, died, then his girlfriend dumped him, then he lost his job. In my experience, there are times in your life when there are so many horrible things happening at once that it’s almost comical. Still, though, Matthias felt flat. Undefined.

Then we lost Cy, and suddenly Matthias made sense. All the rage, all the grief, all the hurt. I decided his sister didn’t just die. No. She died pulling people out of a burning car when she stumbled upon an accident on the side of the road. She was struck by a truck and killed. She died saving people she didn’t even know.

I knew exactly what people would say to Matthias after his sister died. “She was so brave.” “She died a hero.” “She was such a selfless person.” But that didn’t matter to Matthias. What mattered to Matthias was the fact that his sister was gone. Dead. Never to return. The one person who made him feel human and connected to the world was dead in an instant, and she wasn’t coming back. Yes, she died a hero. But she still died.

There was more than that, though. Why had Lily felt inclined to risk her life when she knew she had a family that loved her dearly and would’ve been deeply affected if she were hurt or killed?

When I went to Liberty, I may have left home and my family and court and Cy’s grave and the couch I was lying on when I heard he’d been murdered behind. But that grief came with me. The anger, the hurt, the pain – it never left. It just didn’t identify itself as what it was. Boston and Matthias – Elevator Pitch – became vessels for all the pain that I couldn’t yet voice.

Elevator Pitch is a story about grief, loss, love, and human connection. It’s about how doing the right thing doesn’t always make it all better or make all the pain go away. Elevator Pitch is not a story that will tell you to hurry up and feel better. It is a story that will tell you to slow down and feel. There are not always easy fixes in life. Not for things like grief.

Dad always tells me that giving speeches and pitches isn’t scary if you know you have something to say. Something that matters. I believe I do. I am passionate about Elevator Pitch’s message and I am eager to share it with people who are grieving and in pain.


This brings me to my request. As film students at Liberty University, we are required to fund our own thesis films. This means paying for actors, non-Liberty crew, locations, food during the shoot, and post-production work, such as composing a score and coloring the film. I am asking, if you are able and if you believe in Elevator Pitch’s message, that you donate to the film. Any donation of any size is greatly appreciated by me and by my cast and crew. I wouldn’t ask if I wasn’t absolutely confident in this story and its message.

If you can’t donate, I completely understand. I’d still love for you to be involved and follow along. Elevator Pitch has an official page on Instagram where I post updates, and you’re all always welcome to come hang. I promise the vibes are good.

Thank you for listening to my elevator pitch, even if it took longer than an elevator ride. And thank you all for always cheering my family and I on. This life is heavy sometimes, but we ramble on.

Much love and many thanks,

Allie Goecker 

Follow the film on Instagram here. @elevator_pitch_film 

Donate to the film with Venmo here or at PayPal here.

Scottish Highland Games 2026

We have never made it to the Scottish Highland Games. Michael is in a lot of back pain and isn't going anywhere just now. Melia, Stacia and I ran out to the games this afternoon. It was wet and a bit windy, but we had a thoroughly enjoyable time.  It was $60 for us to get in - and it was worth it. 

We visited vendors, bought a few things, visited with vendors and collected swag. 



We watched a few games! 

We sampled a lot of new foods! My favorite was the Scottish Egg. 


Maybe it will be sunny next year. 

Saturday, June 20, 2026

June Family Celebration


 It's June and so we celebrated Krista (absent) and Bre and Tali (who has been with BreZaak for the past few months).  We also celebrated our Fathers - GG, Michael, Izaak (absent), Cory (absent), Luke (absent) and Jared. We remembered Josiah as well. 

It was a beautiful sunny day, and we made the most of it. This may very well be our summer. We pulled out all the summer fun - water, trampoline, car, yard games, grill and eating outside.  It's complete chaos when we all gather - but it's a blessed chaos. It's so fun to see cousins interacting. 

Trudy, Charles, Josiah, Annie

Josi gets Uncle Nolan

Carrie and Josi


Trudy

Trudy and Ellie

Danny prepares to enter the fray 


Me and Michael 



Josi & Noah

This was Allie's first family gathering since being home. It was a good time to catch up. 
Arielle, Allie & Carrie

The kids love to play with Melia on the trampoline. She's such a good sport! 

Stacia

Ellie

Danny gets Melia 

Olivia and Bella 




Josi, Ellie and Danny

Noah helps Jared with his gift 

Melia gave Mike a Dad Joke mug

Vitaly is working hard. 

Josi & Ellie "Cheese" 


Please, sir, may I come in from the out? 

Josi & Noah

Gideon 


Charles, Josiah, Annie

Bre, Arielle, Allie & Carrie

Summer is such fun!